Phenomenal Woman...

Who can morph a woman's perspective into words better than Maya Angelou..She is one of the poets I find timeless..There are poems which touch you and then there are the ones that stay with you..PHENOMENAL WOMAN will flow in your blood.. especially if you are a woman ...today's woman.. eternal woman.

Here it is.. as a reminder.. if u have forgotten what you, as a woman ,stand for..

Phenomenal Woman

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me. 

-Maya Angelou

just absolutely nothing!!!

Its been over 4  months now, since I first took a bus to Borivali...which is half way to my office, and i need to take an auto rickshaw from there on.So, yes....the Bus.. when i wait for it , it usually comes late.( Murphy proved right yet again!!)hmm.. , so one of these days , I am waiting on the stop.. and this Bus comes..the no. is 65, in case u wanna travel from Thane to Borivali..I get on it.. and find a seat next to this girl.. who i have seen before, in the bus, while travelling, and yes we have exchanged smiles and hellos!!!

So she is sitting right next to me, and as usual we start talking... i mean... we(yes the girls) want to know everything about another.. so that we can make an impression, or have a notion about each other.. So i try to learn about her.. by asking her questions like whr d'u work? since when r u working, and whats the plan for life... see we girls like to plan a lot,,, and the plans must be rosy... yes,.. they should always end up in" happily ever afters".

  Her name is Kriti ,by the way...and she has this "welcome" colored aura around her..she is dark, but has beautiful eyes.. i just couldn't stop staring in her eyes...She very frankly tells me about her life....

She doesn't have her father around anymore, her mother and bhabhi keep fighting all the time, and how she started to smoke... she even showed me the pic of her niece , the only person she loves... she told me..

So there she is , this girl talking to me about her family, likes , x-boyfriends, BBM, and her future plans.She told me she left school , to work in a call center, and she has been working for 4 years now... i ask her , how old she is and she says she's 19....

My gosh...19.. I was a kid wen I was 19, smitten by love, crazy about this guy in college, never thought of a job then... never had any plans... just killing time...So what do I learn?

 I learn that I have wasted a lot of years.. since I had good folks back home,to take care of everything... I never cared as to how difficult it is to earn , and support a family.And here is a girl who  comes to tell me that she is 19, earning since past 4 yrs, and I am 26, just started earning...

Not just this...I am some one who cribs each and everyday about traffic in Mumbai..or ..or .. how much work i get to do in the office, or how my skin is getting dull... I mean people have REAL problems, and all i am doing is making up stuff to pity myself..... 

Well,, nuh huh... this isn't happening anymore...

Thanks Kriti.. 

weight and watch...

Some days are better than others.. while some other , such as today, are there to shake you out of sleepwalking.The msg is right there , in your face... Wake up u lazy bum..!!!Today U weigh 64 kilos...141 lb...
But how did I get here..i was 54 when I last measured me..which was 6 months back.With this speed I would be declared a planet soon..

And what is worse is that I cant try to lose weight, cause recently I have bought a whole wardrobe of formal wear..so i need to use them...:'-(

So today I pledge to watch my weight.. I know it makes one grumpy and all... but whatever it takes...
Achha .. today I also analyzed the reason for gaining weight even when one is on normal vegetarian meal. The first reason must have been worrying.It has to be, because these days I have been worrying about my joining a lot..which for some reason or other is being delayed every time.I should have joined on 6th June..So I decide to stop worrying abt it..I mean I have seen worst days.. I can take this too..ryt!!!

Secondly.... no physical exercise..I am  not even blinking I guess..We have a maid in our house in Mumbai..she might as well breathe on my behalf.So I would try to do some yoga instead.I also need to meditate..cause I am losing track of things... like today I forgot Mayank's birthday..He was my only friend in Pune .

I need to be calmer... more patient .. and more responsive to people in my life and all I am doing is cribbing on some silly joining being delayed..This worrying wont help.

Hope that I be the one I promised to be today.. That's my reason to put it on the blog..as a record.

And tonight i sleep with just one prayer ..please don't let me expand along with the universe..!!!

POSTMORTEM

This was not in the plan..i had to be placed, ryt?its been three whole months and i am not able to get through with the placement.I wonder how the patience didnt ran out.
let me browse through the companies that have rejected me..
1) Welspun , didnt get through the gd
2) ITC, wasnt my choice so even after getting half-selected , i quit.
3) BILT,couldnt get through GD, wasnt interested also.
4) Tata technologies,was rejected before the final round.
5) SKF ,couldnt clear the apti, and so did many others.
6) GM, was so desperate ,spoiled the interview.my fault.


so what is to be noted here is that there were companies that i wanted to be a part of.. and the worst thing is when you get out in the final round.I always pray to god tht please dont take me to the intrvw if i dont have a chance to be selected.
GM was my first intrvw, so i shouldnt feel sorry.but i am.. i mean , i should have been through. 
then when i came back home , i started laughing , surprized.. ?
i was laughing at the ways i made myself feel happy by telling to myself that it was my first interview, the ppl who were selected they went through this atleast 4-5 times, which is true , but it isnt an excuse.
neways..since last night i was thinking about the mistakes that i must have made... 
the first would be being too much apprehensive.. i mean, i could be much cooler than what i was during my intervw... and for the first time i was so cautious. i shouldnt have been.so i kept forgetting little things..
second , i should have been prepared.. i mean they grill you, if they find any potential in you..and i was a fool to think that i know enough.i should have prepared. point taken!!
third,shouldnt have carried the expectations with me.
finally, it is going to be hard when being a girl, i m competing for jobs apparantly meant for boys, in sectors where girls are scarce, and especially when your competition is with an experienced lot... but what the heck... no substitute for hardwork,as they say..see i cant change into a boy, nor can i get any experience today,but one thing for sure , i can be prepared ..
and that i will be.

Bottled up inside..
are the words that I never said,
the feelings that I hide,
the lines that you never heard.


You can see it in my eyes,
read it on my face.
trapped inside are lies..
of the past that i cant replace.


With memories that linger
wont seem to go away,
why cant I be happier?
today's a brand new day..


Yesterdays are over
even though the hurting's not.
Nothing lasts for ever,
I must cherish what I've  got..


Don't take my love for granted
for soon it will be gone.
All you ever wanted
of the love you thought you'd won.


The hurt that I'm feeling now 
wont disappear overnight...
but someway, somehow
everything will turn out right.


No more wishing for the past,
It wasn't meant to be.
It didn't seem to last..
So I have to set him free.

QUOTES BY FAMOUS PERSONALITIES...

HERE ARE SOME QUOTES I HAVE COLLECTED AND RECOLLECTED ...THEY CONTAIN MOST OF OUR ANSWERS...AND WEN I READ THEM I REALISE THAT MAYBE MY LIFE IS NOT AS DIFFICULT AS IT LOOKS...

SOME REAL GEMS HERE!!!

During my life I have often had to eat my own words,and I have found them a wholesome diet.
-Winston Churchill

There are some things so serious you have to laugh at them.
-Neil Bohr

The trouble of being punctual is that there is nobody there to appreciate you.
-Franklin P. Jones

I must be cruel only to be kind.
-William Shakespeare

Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by the age 18.
-Albert Einstein

All my life I always wanted to be somebody.Now I see that I should have been more specific.
-James Wagner

Nothing is at last sacred but the integrity of your own mind.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Life is the art of drawing without an erasor.
-John W. Gardner

The men who succed best in public life are those who take the risk of standing by their own convictions.
-James Garfield.

There is a value in disaster.All our mistakes are burned up.Thank god we can start anew.
-Thomas Edison

One resolution I have made and try always to keep;to rise above little things.
-John Burrough

If a small thing has the power to make you angry,does that not indicate to something about your own size?

-Sydney J. Harris

The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are so sure of themselves;and wise people are so full of doubts.

-Bertand Russel

We make a living by what we get,we make a life by what we give.

-Winston

Committee -A group of people who individually do nothing but as a group decide that nothing can be done.

-Fred Allen

WORLD! MY SON STARTS SCHOOL TODAY....

World! Take my child by the hand-he starts school today!

It is all going to be strange and new to him for a while and I wish u could sort of treat him gently.You see,up to now, he has been king of the roost.He has been boss of the backyard.I have always been around to repair his wounds and I have always been handy to soothe his feelings.

But now things are going to be different.This morning he is going to walk down the front steps,wave his hand and start on a great adventure that probably will include wars and tragedy and sorrow.

To live in this world will require faith and love and courage.So world, I wish you would sort of take him by his hand and teach him the things he will have to know. Teach him-but gently, if you can.He will have to learn, I know, that all people are not just-That all men and women are not true. Teach him that for every scoundrel ,there's a hero.For every enemy there is a friend.

Teach him the wonders of book.Give him quiet time to ponder the eternal mystery of birds in the sky,bees in the sun and flowers on a green hill.Teach him that it is far more honourable to fail than to cheat.Teach him to have faith in his own ideas,even if everyone tells him they are wrong.

Try to give my son the strength not to follow the crowd when everyone is getting on the bandwagon.Teach him to listen to others,but to filter all he hears on a screen of truth and to take only the good that comes through.

Teach him never to put a price tag on his heart and soul.Teach him to close his ears on howling mob-and to stand and fight if he think he is right. Teach him gently,World ,but do not coddle him ,because only the test of fire makes steel.

This is a big order,World, but see what you can do.He is such a nice son.

(Signed)
ABRAHAM LINCOLN.